Insufficient intensity and continuity of personal development are common reasons why many people feel that their efforts do not produce results. At first glance, this might look like a simple problem and that the solution is just some more will power (or the latest fad).
The underlying issues, however, might be one or more of the following:
Attachment to suffering is a complex and interesting idea, described by Eva Pierrakos in her book “Creating Union”. The author wrote that, as children, to defend ourselves from pain, we can learn to take subtle pleasure in suffering. In extreme cases, the result can be masochism (or sadism, when pleasure is projected onto the suffering of others).
To some extent, this pattern is present in everyone and is manifested through finding pleasure in complaining, retelling unpleasant events, playing victim roles, etc. Note that much humor is about other people's pain. We may unconsciously fear that if we give up suffering, we will also lose whatever pleasure we gain from it (e.g. the pleasure many people gain from complaining).
You might want to resolve some of these issues by searching for their causes - possible unpleasant experiences that triggered those patterns. However, some of them are so normal (e.g. resisting pressure and discipline) that it might make little sense to search for specific situations in which those patterns originated.
Apart from those emotional obstacles, there are simpler ones, e.g. forgetting, lack of time or focus due to the external circumstances. These, however, can also be ways to rationalize your unconscious self-sabotage. You might feel guilty or ashamed if you take time for yourself by saying, “No” to others (who afterwards can comment about your personal development). If you would not feel guilty or shameful, you could schedule some time for yourself, and explain to your family why this is important to you. Mention some benefits for them, too. People will be most tolerant to changes in your behavior, if they perceive how they can benefit from them. Strange, isn't it?
We can gradually lose motivation to improve ourselves if we don't know what the reward is – we may not be familiar enough with feelings of freedom, ease, love and other life changes that we could achieve. If you do not have a good idea of your reward, your motivation can suffer.
Some ways you can motivate yourself are:
"Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate." - C.G. Jung
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